Friday, September 29, 2006

Friends are a True Blessing

Zackary and Quayde Best Buddies

Phil Keaggy!



Wow, another fantastic concert for our family! A week later I'm still in awe and saying "WOW" from watching and listening to one of the world's greatest guitar players!

Phil Kaeggy is one of my favorite Christian artists, who introduced me to a path of spiritual growth after I saw him perform when I was 15. Although my path and his greatly differ, both of us are deeply committed to our God. I am so inspired and by his music, faith and life.

Thank you Phil, for gracing my life again (for the 4th time!) and feeding my Soul with your Divinely given talents.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

New Gown!

Audree and BreeAhna have taught themselves to sew this year, and I am in awe of their creations!

Here is Bree's latest beauty. I love the colors, and how the sleeves tie on and off... and how gorgeous she looks.

And of course...A BIRTHDAY FEAST

Because we have a wonderfully healthy relationship with food, Zackary put in his orders for a delightful feast for his birthday.

Savory Pasties are our specialty


With Richard's famous French Onion Soup




Raspberry Trifle is amazingly awesome!







Delicious Sweet Potato Pecan Pie





Dark Chocolate Dipped Stawberries, yum!





Our pal Chels thinks our feasts are delicious!

Happy Birthday to my Son





On September 18th, Zackary turned 11. My baby boy is growing up, and each day I appreciate his young spirit.

My dear Zackary Jerem, 11 years ago I gave birth to you, my one and only son, and wept for joy as I cradeled you in my arms. Thank you for joining our family, and for blessing us each and every day since. I love you,
Mom


Zack after a big day of celebrating himself! He has a pattern of falling asleep in odd places...this one is so cute under the dining room table!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Catching a BEing toss from Tracie


My question for you tonight.....Yes you...is this; Are you really happy? Are you feeling joy and lightness in your daily activities? Or are you "comfortable" existing?
So you haven't made the commitment to BEing joyful. hummmm
Is it because maybe you are thinking it is too much work or life's circumstances are just weighing you down too much?
Let's start with this; list ten things that made you happy today. If you can't do ten write down five.

I want to know what makes you happy today... what makes you smile and laugh. Let me know!

My reply:

10 aspects of me that create a being of happiness:

1. Feeling the gentle, and sometimes intense, flow of my Soul coursing through my body.
2. Peaceful thoughts floating through my head in the midst of a chaotic day.
3. The buzzy feelings of vibrancy that tingle through my body.
4. Hearing the inspiring voice of the Spirit within me, creating wonder in my life.
5. My body, that feels fully many many states of being. Yum!
6. Embodying my Soul's purpose, an aspect of that is "to inspire others with wonder."
7. My Essence pace, which when I slow down and connect with it creates a total Being of ease and harmony.
8. Being states...that create an opening of my breath, an uprising of energy through my body, and a smile radiating from my heart.
9. Being physically healthy!
10. Conscious commitments that direct my reality, and the unconscious commitments that also direct my reality lol...and the gifts and tools I've embodied to shift what I don't want into what I do want. :)

How's that Trac? I'm appreciating your toss and how it has reminded me that Being begins within... and that in Being with intention we can have chaos happening outside of us and find the joy and magic within the chaos.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Being Well

Hurray! After 3 days on the couch, I'm feeling much better! Remembering to keep connected with my beingness while I'm busy doing today.

Today's grand from the universe is spent on much needed groceries to begin with. I'm amazed at how much food the kids can consume in 3 days! Bree is wanting (gasp...shhhh) bras that aren't sports bras...alotting $150 for Vickies comfy bras. Another $50 to have my mailbox installed and the sheetrock finished in the basement. Then I was thinking how fun it would be to send my mom $500...her birthday is coming up...and in the past I'd give her $100...and she'd throw a fit...being the rebellious daughter that I am...I'll send her $500 this year! Feeling the flow of this universal money coming into and through my life...the state of being is.... ease. Plenty of money does create ease in my life, and I like that!

Friday, September 08, 2006

BE > DO > HAVE

As I lounge on day number 3 of my self pampering (still not fully well) I have made better friends with Being. In my Rapid Eye Tech. training, I was introduced to society's way of having > doing > being...and then the soulful way of being > doing > having.

Being instead of doing isn't easy, as a well programmed US citizen beginning in our public schools at an early age. A current Newsweek cover states "The New First Grade: Too Much Too Soon?" and a book review of The Overachievers: The Secret Lives of Driven Kids by Alexandra Robbins...shows how we are creating not only overachievers, but well burned-out ones.

Even though I homeschool my 4 children with child-led exploration, and have totally enjoyed being a stay at home mom (until recently when I created my awesome business) I have also witnessed this invisible judge that follows me around telling me I'm doing doing doing enough to have successful children nor successful life. I've interviewed this judge...and this is what she has to say for herself. The most important thing to my judge is success. She's most proud of scowling at me. She first made her appearance from my mom when I was in her womb. She's most afraid of ridicule. She most deeply and soulfully wants peace and ease.

As I was reading Home Education Magazine yesterday while soaking in a hot bath, I found a couple of quotes, that are for children but I realized they are for me as well! "Most importantly, homeschooling (life) allows you to give your children (and self) time to explore and to think about things on their (our) own. Children (people) who figure things out for their (our) own purposes, literally do own that knowledge (wisdom) and can build on it." from The Beginner's Guide to Homeschooling. (parenthesis mine)

Another quote: "I can't think of anything more homeschoolish (soulful) than this: choosing to give your child (self) the gift of time. There is the gift of your presence (beingness). (Beingness provides) Time allows being there to guide, answer and adventure. Just as important is the gift of time for them (us) to grow up (and be)unhurried." from A Gift of Time by Sue Smith-Heavenrich.

In my last training, Kaite Hendricks shared how parenting heals those stages of development that we missed growing up. My mom had a busy job as a head OB nurse when she was pregnant with me, #4 child, with a new husband that was away spending her money more than he was home contributing to the family. I am seeing that I was hard wired to DO DO DO with nearly a panic that there is never enough time to do everything needed to provide and survive. My making peace with slowing down and being is very healing, not only for myself but for my children as well.

In the book Crazybusy by Edward Hallowell, MD he so well writes about taking your time, that "if you want to live life fully, we do best to slow down. Otherwise you will bulldoze over life's best moments. You won't notice the little charms that adorn each day, nor will you ever transform the mundane into the extraordinary."

Transforming the mundane into the extraordinary, I love it!

Being > Doing > Having

Extraordinary!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Conscious and Unconscious Pampering

I'm lounging on my couch today with a cup of hot tea by my side, music by Harold Grandstaff Moses http://ecor.azaz.com/ihs/drmoses.php playing on the iPod, a stack of Cottage Living magazines and my new treasure of Sheriff Gay Hendricks books (1970's and his photo looks like Butch Casady) strewn about...taking a pampering day for myself.

Pampering is my conscious word for the week (possibly a life project though)...or maybe I should say I'm playing more with making it conscious. Am I taking a pampering day consciously? No...I'm under the weather with a sore throat and body aches.

So, what else is making pampering the conscious word of the week? On Sunday, Tracie blogged http://openjourney.blogspot.com/ about a fun game online called the Prosperity Game. In her words: "If you are ready to have some fun,(yes your money relationship can be fun) and maybe change your relationship and have more flowing to you check out this site and play!" Catching the toss from Trac, I checked out the site. http://www.choosingprosperity.com/

In the game, you get to spend universal checks (sent each day for a hundred days ranging from a grand to a million dollars! You get to "spend" these checks, and journal about what comes up for you. I figured easy...I have no probs spending money. I'll share my first journal with you:

Wow...a thousand dollars...I'm ordering the Genius Program with Gay Hendricks for $500! When I think of this...a rush of energy flows up my body...a smile comes onto my face... and in perfect Gay tone "I feel happy" comes out of my mouth! Yum!

another $500 for my universe money today... let's see.... my RET training in January is $875 for both trainings...yet I'm unsure about going there or to the Hendricks... so I'll hold off on that choice...

Another $500...hmmm...I'm seeing a homeschooling catalog that I love to order from... I'd order everything that catches the kids' attention and curiosity! I'm also seeing a passionate young adult who would love to support the kids in their journey of exposure and learning from what they order and beyond!

the kids would probably have wanted a dishwasher rather than new school books lol

so what's up...is....second guessing....yes...

I know...today I'd spend $500 on pampering myself... a massage...pedicure...RET and coaching session for me....and my hair highlighted and styled just right!

And with the greatest nanny for the kids hired...to make their day great too!

lol...yup....gotta work on the guilt!

9/5/06
I'm focusing on my response to pampering. Last night I had a gallbladder attack... and am seeing Peter on Thursday. I noticed that I'm fine setting up an appointment for health care like that, but not for taking some pampering time. I'm committed to playing with this!


That was yesterday...and I worked on my own gallbladder...and then woke up with new symptoms. Wow, I'm not getting off the hook very easily!

I can either commit to pampering myself consciously (like getting that $23 pedicure from WalMart lol) or pampering myself unconsciously (like lounging on the couch cuz I'm sick). Time will tell which commitment wins out! This is a big one!